The story of me and my illness

So I decided that I want to share my story. some of you might not see it as an illness but it really is and afected my life a lot.

I was always tired, had a lot of headaches and was ill all the time and I had a pain in my belly with I didn’t notice until it got worse. I weighted only 48 KiloGrams and I didn’t eat a lot. When the other problems got worse too I went to see a doctor but he couldn’t help me except with some scary medicine that stopped half the function of your guts. And since I don’t like those kinds of things at all I didn’t take it. The problem was clear at this point though. My guts weren’t working properly with created gasses within my body and since gasses are lighter than fluids they go up. for transport your guts squeeze your food to move it. The gasses stayed in the top most place it could get wich is the highest part of my colon, and it didn’t move at all. My body kept trying to move it but it didn’t work and because it squeezed my colon so hard it really hurt.

I went to a therapist who told me I wasn’t getting any nutrients out of my food. He litteraly moved my guts with his hands, with super gentel touches. It was the stranges thing I ever felt, I felt my guts moving around slowly while it felt like he was doing noting at all. He helped me make the pain disappear in places I didn’t even know I was hurt (in my fingers, my back and my knies). He told me what foods I can eat and what supplements to use. I had to take a lot of vitamine D and I can’t eat: Sugar, gains and milk products (and not to much fruits) so I basically live from vegetables, meat, fish, nuts and eggs. I can have stuff from goat milk by the way and I really like goat cheese.

I didn’t go to school for 3 months last year (2014) starting February. I couldn’t do anything, if I was out of bed for more than 5 minutes I almost fainted in the beginning. But with eating and living the way I am now, wich was really tough and kind of scary because I just had to trust this one man who said he knew what he was doing. (I really had to have the guts to overcome my guts) I also had a hard time not being able to do things because I like being active, I got through it all. in the last 8 weeks of school before the summer vacation I catched up- on all the work, so I basically did the work you are supposed to do in 5 months in 2 months and I am really proud of that.

I now weigh 53 KiloGrams wich is perfect for my length (1.72 Meter)

I have written this this way because I don’t want to be all dramatic but it was tough. I got through it and I know you can too! whatever you’re dealing with, you can do it, I may take time, it may be hard but you are able to do so much more than you realise, sometimes you just need help from the right person so don’t be afaid to ask for help.

I am very bussy the next 3 weeks, I have a lot tests at school. I have decided to post every Saturday, maybe sometimes I’ll post on an other day but always at saturday too. The lengths of the posts may vary.

I love you all X Cleo ❤

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Merry christmas!!!

Merry Christmas to whoever is reading this!!! I had a blast at the coast, the restaurant at the beach. It’s a very nice place -I’ll show you a picture and hope copyright doesn’t exist- and the food was really good, only a bit too much 😉 I just got back and I’m tired, still not feeling well so I’m going to bed

Love X Cleo ❤

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what a week…

So here I am, on Christmas eve. Writing to no one, in my bed, being ill. Yesterday night I fainted on the bathroom floor when I was getting water. I hit my head but I had a headache anyway so it didn’t really change anyting. I hope I’ll feel better tomorrow because we will have dinner at this restaurant at the beach which is pretty nice, I really hope I can come…

Quiet a lot happened since I won the stamps 😉 Wednesday evening I forgot my volleyball training which basicly was a disaster for my mood because I’m not used to screwing things up like that. Thursday was fun again at my primary school, Thursday night I had a Christmas dinner there. For the first time in my life I didn’t eat too much of the deliciousness. Then on Friday I really got to do things, I cleaned a LOT. And when I was finished and free to go I stayed anyway, just to talk to the teacher I had, she is such a wonderful person. I love talking to her because she just cares, there’s no other reason why she’s interested an do can really be myself around her. I’m still not sure if the message that I think she’s amazing got through to her though. Then Friday evening I played an amazing match, 2-2 if we would have won we’d be champion but it was so much fun and we were great. Then let’s see, saterday I had an appointment at the hairdresser at 12:30 and of course I slept till 13:30 because that’s me and things didn’t work out so well this week. Sunday I had a birthday party and I couldn’t find the place of my friend because I had only been there once before, when I got there, after about 40 minutes of searching around they were standing in the hallway, about to go bowling. I won. I was teribble but I won, we all suck at bowling 😛 after the bowling party I went and picked up my cousin, she stayed till Tuesday 🙂 and after she left I got ill and I have been laying in bed most of the time.

So that’s how my week went… Not like anyone cares but I like writing anyway, to sort out my thoughts.

If you want to know more about me check the about me thingy

X Cleo